I am Just NOT

I am just not meant to have more than 2 kids!  Its only been 2 weeks of having Bryson and Jaxon everyday and I can't do it!  I love these boys and they are the sweetest but its just TOO MANY boys to have at one time...  There is always one of them fighting or crying!  I have no patience for TEARS or FIGHTING for that matter!  Its extremely hard for me and I have decided that I am just not cut out to be a daycare!  Its amazing I keep my boys alive on a daily basis!  I decided to get them out of my house before one of them lost a limb!  We went to the Firehouse park, I thought yes they get to run all their energy out and it will be fun!  NOT, I pushed Jaxon on the swing more times than I pushed Treycen so Treycen pouted and Aiden is too fast for me, every time I turned around he was climbing to the very top of the playground where he was about to walk right off one of the openings...  Then Jaxon fell off the spinning thing so he came balling his little heart out, as I am holding him trying to make him laugh and feel better he is crying "I want my mommy"  Great, she won't be here for 7 more hours and nothing I say or do will get him to calm down and in the mean time Aiden is eating the wood chips and Treycen is screaming at me to come push him on the swing!  WOW!  How can these moms have more than 2 kids and still have all their hair?  I decided that I was just not born with the "MOM JEAN" I had an extremely hard day today!  But I will not let 4 little boys defeat me!  My house is in pieces, I have blocks scattered from room to room, couch cushions all over my floor and I keep stepping on crayons!  But the boys are all smiling and happy!  I hope this gets easier and the boys will learn to love me!  I promise I am not mean, or so I try really hard not to be! Here's hoping for a better tomorrow! 

HAPPY TUESDAY!

I love his face, he is such a daydreamer!